TIRED OF EVERYTHING ;l

I can get so angry at myself at times. And when i do that, i can get so tired, so tired i can sleep it off.

Sometimes i think making friends are like barriers in my life. I think i am the unlucky one. I make friends who leave me mad, sad, and ALMOST everything negative. Guess maybe today is just one of those days, where i get so moody and fark up at small little stuffs. But the problem is these things have been in my head for a super long time. No, i am not depress. I am one of those person who wants to make everything right, apparently i am not doing it correctly.

HMM, maybe in your point of view, i am a small-air person who get mad at you for EVERYTHING. but why, why cant you see the things you`re doing is hurting me. I mean is this really friends? Forget it, maybe this ship is not even real. Let it sink in the middle of a deep blue ocean or get sucked down by the bermuda triangle. You don t even care, and if that is the way, i have nothing to say and drown in your selfishness.

i finally understand the ugly truth of making fun of people because i have just painfully experience it.

and telling a white lie can be so hurtful too.

i didn t tell anyone how i feel about today. i was afraid that my stupid paranoidness might burden them. So, i will just keep smiling like nothing had ever happen even though deep down i am regreting, i have to just move on with my life.

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i am getting sick of sgs floorball life. everybody is in thier own world. and Mr. Wee just told me something uncomfortable. I don t even know if i can accept it. But for my love for floorball, can i just ignore them even though it is hardly possible? I am so so so afraid i might like them even though i am STRAIGHT. i think if that is the case, i better stick closer to boys :l . i said IF.

it scares me even though i am just thinking about it.